The Choices of Life

The unknown knocks at my subconsciousness,

I cower in a corner not wanting to let it in.

Fearing what it will bring,

Fearing what it will teach,

Fearing what it will show me,

I deny it access.

Time p****es and I grow in my self.

Time p****es and I regain my self.

Time p****es and again the knocking is heard.

I no longer cower, but approach the door.

Welcoming the unknown,

Welcoming what it will bring

Welcoming what it will teach,

Yearning for what it will show me,

I open the door wide.

Doorways to the past, present, future, present themselves.

Mine is the choice to make.

Which do I open first.

The Past.

Lessons learned and forgotten.

Lives lived and lost.

Loves forgotten and refound.

These are the gifts of the past that lead to the present.

The door to the Present is already open.

It is where I am now.

The path leading from this door is leading to the future.

I review the choices I have made.

I review the mistakes I have made.

Did I learn from these choices, these mistakes?

Or am I destined to repeat them until I Do learn?

Only the Future may tell me.

I continue on.

The door to the Future is in front of me.

Will I open it when the time comes?

That time is now.

I look back over my journey and make my decision.

I will go forward.